At home with the little one... ...

Home alone today with BB Wen Hua. Mum went to SGH to get her hearing aid checked. There has been much feed back from the hearing aid the past month.

When Hua supposed to be due to drink milk but he is still sleeping. Shall not wake him up.
Always in this dilemna, to want him to stay awake so you can talk to him but also to want him to sleep more so he can grow faster.

Just read Carol's blog and received the latest update on Celeste's growth. The lil girl is doing well.
Wen Hua is due for his check-up in mid-Aug. Can't wait to find out his progress.

Wen Hua been back nearly 2 weeks. Mum and I had been buzzing around him. Our time works around his clock... sleep time, feed time and my milk expressing time. Didn't realise that a small lil fellow is able to bring about so much changes to one's life.

Well, Mum and I sort of been able to work out some personal time. Mum has been able to go for breakfast, tea and dinner dates with her friends.

Leo and I caught a movie at Vivo after BB Celeste Baby Shower on Sun. Have not been to a movie for months. This is an activity tat Leo and I used to do bout once a month ( if there is a good movie). Must not let this die off. Must have alone time with Leo cos cannot neglect him.
Heard from friends tat it is impt to maintain couple time after baby comes into the family. Well, I agree. W/o this couple time, husband and wife may lose touch with one another and thus starts drifting apart.

Wen Hua is showing signs tat he is waking up to have his milk soon. Such a dearie. Able to give warning signs for Mummy to get ready!

Loving the 2 men in my life,
Leo and Wen Hua

The one and only love of my life......

I used to tell myself that I would not want to have a malaysian as a boyfriend. Not only was my only boyfriend a malaysian, I married him too. However, I have no regrets over marrying him.

Dear Baby Leo, this is specially dedicated to you.
I have always known that you loved me dearly and that you really take good care of me. No one knows me better than you do. As you always say, just moving my little finger and you know all the little tricks up my sleeve.

During the difficult and traumatic time I had, you stood by me with unwavering love and care. I remember the tender loving care from you on the nights when you slip into the ICU ward to clean and massage my body. I remember the pain in your eyes when you see all the tubes running through my body. I remember the eyebags underneath your eyes due to the nights you stood guard outside the ICU ward. I remember the worry on your face when the docs gave you bad news on my condition. I remember the relief you had when the docs delivered good news. Most of all, I remember the pride and joy in you when our baby boy was born.

Yes, it was indeed a traumatic experience for me but I know the amount of trauma that you went through was no less than me. Not only do you have to deal with all that were happening to me, you had to suppress your own emotions and be strong for me and to not put undue worry in me.
Furthermore, you had to handle all my relatives and friends who turn up to show their support.
It was definitely not easy for you. I know you are scared of losing me. I will take good care of my health so that I will not fall sick again.

Thank you Baby for all that you have done for me. No words can express the thanks and love I have for you.

I just want to let you know that you are the one and only love of my life (will need to include Wen Hua now!) and I have no regrets marrying you. In fact, there is no one else I will want to have as my husband other than you!

I Love You!
Sharon, your wife.

Special Thanks to.....

Baby was born on 31 May 2010 @ 3.03am. The little being in me has finally arrived abeit much stress on everyone around us. Will talk more about Baby later.
My ordeal was over. The whole experience had been a difficult time for me.
However, I have learnt that I am indeed a blessed soul. There are many people around me who loved and cared for me.
This entry is dedicated to saying thanks to these people around me.
To all my Aunties, Uncles and Cousins.
To my friends-Huiyi & Funyi, Shiqian & Damien, Priscilla & Gary, Meiji, Manting, Christina, Carol & Allan, Audrey, Huimin, Carol, Adeline, Michelle, Lisiah, Natalie, Irene, Wern Hwei, Meredith.
To my beloved family- Hubby, Mum, Sis and Jason.
Many others whom I will not mention specifically.

Thank you all for the care and love that you had given me during this difficult time.
Without your encouragment, I would not know how to get through this difficult period.

I can't mention more about how blessed I am.
Thank you all once again!

Traumatic Experience Part 3

Well, I have to admit that I am indeed not a blogger. It was about a month ago when I entered my last entry. Leo got tired waiting for this entry.
As mentioned in the last entry, my pneumonia was getting better and much monitoring was done on baby and I.
I was starved on Sat 29 May. There seemed to be some irregularity in Baby's movement in me. Gynea doc said that I had to fast just in case I need to go into E. C-sect. I was very worried for the little one in me. But was too weak to really know what was going on. On top of that, the gastric juice running in me was making me sick as well. I remembered I kept asking the nurses when I would be able to eat. 'Soon', was all I got.
Gynea doc decided that we could still keep baby in me as he was just a 30 weeker. Of course, the longer baby stayed in me, the better it was for him.
Finally able to have food. However, there was closer monitoring on baby now. The nurses at ICU had to keep a close watch on baby's condition.
On Sun 30 May, there were more irregularities on baby's movement chart. I was to fast again.
On Mon 31 May, just past midnight, nurses at ICU found a huge drop in baby's movement. Gynea doc was called in to the ward at ICU. I couldn't do much. I was drifting in and out of sleep. Too weak from the fasting. Only remembered gynea doc saying to monitor a while more.
However, before long, the gynea doc was called in again. I have not felt baby's movement for a long time. Looking at the chart, it also registered little movement from baby.
Well, time to take baby out.
I was wheeled into the operating theatre.
I was still drifting in between sleep and consciousness. I remembered bending over and having the epidural. However, due to my water retention, my back was so thick that the anaesthetist could not find my backbone and had to jab me three times. Luckily, I was too drowsy to really feel the pain. The next thing I knew, my lower half of my body went numb. My legs felt like elephant legs...... hugh!!!
I was really scared of what was to happen next. I wanted Hubby to be with me but he was not allowed as it was an emergency c-sect. Thankfully, the anaesthetists, Dr Leong and Dr Justinian kept me company and talked to me throughout the whole time.
Though scared, I was listening out for that sound, the wailing of my baby!!!
Relief swept through me when I heard that beautiful sound. Finally, my baby boy was born! It was so loud and shrill! The little fighter!
As, baby was really small, he was taken away immediately. I was not given the chance to take a look at my baby boy! Regardless, as long as he was safe, everything was worth it!
Finally, everything was over. My ordeal was over.

Traumatic Experience Part 2

Having the fever subside was a good thing and was looking forward to being discharged.
However, during the night, I experienced difficulties in breathing.
The next day, during a routine walkabout by some HODs of the hospital, Dr K Kwek listened to my lungs and decided that there were some serious problem with me.
So I was sent to this place called the POA where I was observed.
Still having difficulties breathing and BP was exceptionally high.
I could not remember when but soon I found myself waking up in ICU.
The next few days went on in a blur.
Lotsa blood were taken and many tests were done.
An x-ray was also taken to see how my lungs were. But need to be exceptionally cautious cos Baby was still in me.
Results came back and I was diagnosed with severe pneumonia in both lungs and pre-eclempsia.
Risks for both were very high. Couldnt remember much about pneumonia except that it was infection in the lungs. Pre-eclempsia was worrying cos it may lead to liver and kidney failure.
So I stayed in ICU for the next 7 days.
All went on in a blur for me. All I rememebered was being on antibiotics, on the drip, changing my dripline 4 times in all, lotsa blood taking till my foot wasnt spared too.
2 groups of docs were looking after me. one for the pneumonia and the other from Obstrictian and Gyneacology. I had to be monitored so was Baby. They had to make sure that he was doing fine in me as well.

Sorry Baby dearie, for having you to go through so much.
Mummy love you lots.

Traumatic Experience Part 1

Well, not one into blogging but looking back at what had happened the past 2 weeks, i guess it is worth the while to write about it. I guess it is kinda theraptic for me, to write about it all.

It all started with a persistent fever that is higher than 38.5 degrees. Hubby had no choice but to send me to a GP on 21 May bout 12midnight. The doc suggested that I be admitted into KK or Mount A where I am suppposed to deliver. I decided to go for KK in case there is any emergency, it is better equipped than Mount A.

So I was admitted into KK at bout 2 am. Was sent to the deliver suite just in case i need to deliver. Was monitored for my fever. Realised that BP is very high too. Suspected pre-eclempsia (hypertension during pregnancy). Started drawing blood and doing lab tests.

Fever finally went down after 2 days. but definitely having hypertension as the BP refuse to do down. Blood and urine samples also shown signs of it thus was sent to the ward for further observation.

Well, this is just the first part with regards to having fever. The more traumatic part is yet to come... ...